into the ground with thee, cursed year

cursed year of our lord two thousand and ten

two thousand and eleventh cursed year of our lord

year two thousand and ten, a dead year

year of curses and of cursing

year of poor-making and mind-sorrowing

year of harrowment of mind and of sorrow of mind

year of buying groceries at the dollar store

year of strong drink

year of crumbling and

year of purposeful dismantling

year of loss both private and public

year of making war

year of right honourable stephen joseph harper, pc, mp

year of going to sleep and waking up dead

year of being turned away

year of giving up and

year of being stolen from and

year of humiliation

year of stealing

year of running

year of being run to earth

year of being chased and hunted

year of being hunted down and

year of dying like a dog in the street

year of dried blood and matted hair

year of detainment, of application of force

year of forcing people

year of knives and guns

year of dark rooms

year of noise and of too-quietness, alternatingly

year of holding of knives against the body

year of regular dying

year of dead people

year of deathliness and deadening and

year of deadness in general

now thou art dead also

run down and run to earth

buried in frozen earth-coffer

grave cut from frozen earth

and we don't care and

we spit thee out of our mouths

and we curse thee, go down

 

[to be recited toast-fashion, with raised glass containing strong drink]

kilju about to be finished and bottled

steaming glass vessels on stove top

fermentation container has been deballooned
kilju is about to be poured into empty cheez whiz jar
through a couple of coffee filters

i am going to discard the dregs i think
the pouring process has stirred up the crud somewhat
a siphon would have worked better

finished jar of kilju

kind of beige and cloudy looking

don't think the coffee filters helped very much

i will let this sit in the fridge for a while maybe, see if it clears up





in the meantime:

recoil in horror
just kidding it tastes good
like alcohol
surprisingly dry

"how ghastly it shall be when all world's wealth in waste standeth"

kilju displayed in front of a hand
to show stratification
it is xmas eve today
day 23
!!!
?

i know good drink takes time
so also does bad drink, apparently

walking around on the cold floor

 standing still on the cold floor

kilju is clarifying up nicely

kilju has ceased its infernal gassing

came home last night and the balloon was empty

will give it another day or two to settle
then i will be drinking it

note to readers:

i am not an anarchist/libertarian/rugged individualist
i love paying taxes and receiving the benefit of various social programs

it's just that i am poor
in at least one sense of the word (not a lot of money)
and in need of strong drink

these johnnies are canoeing home to get some kilju

day 13
special "all kilju" issue

kilju backlit to show consistency

top 10 or 15 mm getting clearer
hardly any bubbling action at this point

the crud is falling down and settling on the bottom

the yeast is slowing down
not as much gas is being produced
balloon is not as taut
when i bleed gas out of the balloon it takes longer to refill

a reasonably deep layer of crud is forming in the bottom
as seen in this dramatic photograph
taken day 13

i will give it a few more days to stop gassing
maybe a couple more on top of that
to let the rest of the crud settle

"this was the price of that inspiration."  his arm was disfigured by a scar from elbow to wrist.  "but i have no regrets," petrovsky continued with a smile.  "after all, it's the kind of thing one could pay for with one's life."/inspiration/viktor kolupaytev

he did not seek refined nuances of pleasure: no, he systematically sought out all the simple ordinary pleasures accessible to the creature whose image he had adopted.  thus on remizangi, his third planet, he had caught forbidden blue spiders and mashed them on his stomach with a grimace.  they gave off an unspeakably wonderful aroma which plunged him into the three minor remizangian cycles of the state of blissful prostration.  on the only planet of the sun nii-naa, which was exhausted in time by the population explosion of half-wild creatures which gave birth to eight or nine young at a time, he crawled from cave to cave, leaving behind a slimy trail of his own saliva, in search of yellow-eyed young.  when he found what he was seeking, he seized the beast and called together the whole heard for vengeance with a solemn howl.  even on copper mountain, from which they escaped, tails tucked, after losing half the crew, he managed to break four of the six restrictions of the ordinance and even copulated with the bird-mouse sheyela, which did not fall under any code of laws or regulations whatsoever./the planet with nothing to offer/olga larionova

black text, blue page numbers

request to readers

token images evocative of coldness

this guy's eating ice cream

"to have stalin tattooed on one's chest is uncultured"

i think the kilju might have looked awesome yesterday but i wasn't here to see it
to day it looks the same again
when i scrutinize it i think i see it starting to clarify a little
the top approx 1mm of liquid
but i'm not sure if it's my imagination/eagerness
altering my perception
of the kilju

1

>>>oft him anhaga  
>>>oft him alone-hedged   

>>>are gebide[eth]

>>>honour abideth
                  
>>>metudes miltse
>>>method's mercy
       

>>>[th]eah [th]e he modcearig

>>>though that he mind-caring  

>>>geond lagulade
>>>yond lake-lanes        

>>>longe sceolde
>>>long shall                   

>>>hreran mid hondum
>>>roil with hands
  

>>>hrimcealde s[ae]
>>>rime-cold sea                   

>>>wadan wr[ae]clastas
>>>wander wretched ways

: : :

>>>oft him alone-hedged

>>>in honour abideth,

>>>in maker's mercy,

>>>though his mind be sorrowed.

>>>in waterways

>>>long shall

>>>he roil with hands

>>>rime-cold sea,

>>>walk wretched path.

2

>>>eal th]is eor[th]an gesteal 
>>>all this earthen stead
      

>>>idel weor[th]e[eth]

>>>idle becometh

>>>swa cw[ae][eth] snottor on mode        

>>>so saith wise in mind

>>>ges[ae]t him sundor [ae]t rune
>>>sat him asunder at reading

: : :

>>>all this earthen stead

>>>empty becometh.

>>>so saith the wise of mind,

>>>sat asunder in thought.

= = = 

 token images of kilju maker waiting in the dark for kilju to finish brewing

3

>>>ond [th]as stanhleo[th]u        
>>>and its stone-hill

>>>stormas cnyssa[eth],
>>>storms presseth                                   

>>>hri(eth) hreosende         

>>>snow descending

>>>hrusan binde[eth]                                                      
>>>earth bindeth

>>>wintres woma
>>>winter's wailing     

>>>[th]onne won cyme[eth]    
>>>then wan cometh                                     

>>>nipe[eth] nihtscua 

>>>hideth night-shadow
      
>>>nor[th]an onsende[eth]  
>>>northern on-sendeth                                             

>>>hreo h[ae]glfare
>>>rough hail-fare     

>>>h[ae]le[th]um on andan
>>>men in anger                               

>>>eall is earfo[eth]lic  
>>>all is difficulty 

>>>eor[th]an rice
>>>earthen realm                                       

>>>onwende[eth] wyrda gesceaft  
>>>on-wendeth fate's craft 

>>>weoruld under heofonum.  
>>>world under heavens

: : :

>>>and this stone-hill
>>>storms smiteth,
>>>snow descending
>>>earth hideth,
>>>winter's wail
>>>then dusk cometh
>>>hideth in night-shadow,
>>>north on-sendeth
>>>rough hail-fare,
>>>and men to anger.
>>>all is hardship
>>>in earthen realm.
>>>on wendeth fate's creation,
>>>world under heavens.

= = =

token image of kilju sitting on a ledge

day 7

if it wasn't so cold in this room

i might be drinking kilju by now

type set transcription of original anglo saxon:

ongietan sceal gleaw h[ae]le

hu g[ae]stlic bi[eth]

[th]onne ealre [th]isse worulde wela

weste stonde[eth]

swa nu missenlice

geond [th]isne middangeard

winde biwaune 

weallas stonda[th]

hrime bihrorene

my first draft word for word raw translation

after consulting truesdell translation (from yesterday)

hewing as closely as possible to alliterative and rhythmic schemes of the original

guessing at modern english etymologies when possible

and even when not possible

even to the point of incoherence

and syntactic/grammatical mangling

and improvisation:

>>>ongietan sceal gleaw h[ae]le

>>>understand shall wise man

>>>hu g[ae]stlic bi[eth]

>>>how ghastly be

>>>[th]onne ealre [th]isse worulde wela

>>>then all this world weal

>>>weste stonde[eth]

>>>waste standeth

>>>swa nu missenlice

>>>so now miscellaneously

>>>geond [th]isne middangeard

>>>yond this middleearth

>>>winde biwaune

>>>wind blown

>>>weallas stonda[th]

>>>walls standeth

>>>hrime bihrorene

>>>rime bitten

my second draft
refined for clarity
attempting to retain word order/rhythm/alliteration
as much as possible
wherever it makes sense to do so
and after having acheived better understanding of
the root of the word  "bihrorene" :

>>>understand shall the wise man

>>>how it shall ghastly be
>>>when all this world's wealth

>>>in waste standeth

>>>as now variously
>>>throughout this earthly realm
>>>windblown walls

>>>standeth rime-befallen

accidental picture of me looking at kilju

day 5 draws to a close
not too much to report
slight colour change maybe

something like milky white

   

soon i will be drinking kilju
drinking a toast with/to kilju
raising my glass high, incanting thusly

>>> the wise man knows
>>> how dreadful it will be
>>> when all world’s wealth
>>> stands waste;
>>> as now variously
>>> throughout this earth
>>> wind blown
>>> walls stand,
>>> frost-covered

zooming in on the surface of the kilju
i can hear it bubbling

first 24 hrs the room smelled like balloon rubber
next 24 hrs the room smelled like bread rising
like a sweet bread

now there is no smell
other than the regular smells of the apt.

dreaming of done kilju
kilju is dreaming also of being done